| Not only did he make a stupid mistake;
he lied to me. |
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| Just when you think things
Can't get any worse, they do.
But I've learned that life is
Like an hourglass.
Sooner or later everything hits rock bottom
But all you have to do is be patient
And wait for someone to turn it all around.
Pain is inevitable,
suffering is optional. Sometimes, we expect too much. The key is to just expect nothing. That one time when you're not all caught up in thinking about what you want to happen, it will. |
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| I need a break. I need to get away from everything, track, school.. just everything. I cried at track practice today because i was so pissed off at track in general. With a certain someone [ not mentioning names ] being a egotistical, attention-aholic, crybaby bitch, making Herbst focus on only her for God knows what reason. And he's to effing scattered-brained to see she does this for attention and only wants people to pity her. So he ignores everyone else and pisses them off just because she's a fake. He stopped caring about us along time ago and got too into winning the meets in general. He only wants us to win to get some points in the meets. Its about trophies to him, not about us anymore. With Scaringi, he gave up on me this year or something. He'll work with our JV hurdler on 3-stepping [ note she still 5-steps at times...] but won't give me the time of day. "my legs are too bad," um no, i know my limits. No wonder i didn't get any better at the 100's this year, he effing gave up on us.
I get so mad at myself when i don't perform to my standards and its really just pushed me too far now. I'm done, i'm sick of always letting myself down, never being good enough. Maybe my standards are too high, but it doesn't matter because i'm a 'has been.' Last year, i was the person to beat at track. Other teams had to look out for me. This year, its just not the same. I've lost something, but i don't know what it is. I don't know how to get it back. I shouldn't have ran this year like i planned in the first place. It would've saved me a lot of stress and breakdowns; i wouldn't be hating myself right now. I try to convince others i don't care anymore;
but really, i'm still trying to convince myself. |
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| & doesn't take very long. http://www.myhometownhelper.com/ViewProject.aspx?id=23441 just go to that link and leave a comment. SK color guard needs new equipment and a new tarp. And well, thats hard to pay for with general fees being so high and having no support from the school. Hamburger Helper is a program that grants groups money... the more comment the better chance we have of winning the money. So please, help us out. The comment can be anything, simple to detailed. It doens't matter, just please help us out. |
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